I have some mini-neuroses concerning eating. Whenever I share food with Richard, I must have the last bite. I’m not sure why, but I feel some undercurrent of deprivation and panic if I don’t get the last bite. Sometimes even when I’m eating something alone I feel a strange, quiet panic when [...]
The scarlet runner bean. Phaseolus coccineus. I love it.
The flowers are a glowing, iridescent red. Hummingbirds adore them for their nectar. The flowers are edible, and the beans too, when they are young. I started growing them a couple years ago, in pots on my deck (for lack [...]
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Ballookey, creator of the above image, writes, “Why share it if you have to go to those lengths? Just keep your photos locked up in your house forever and ever amen. Generations of cats will love and admire you, but truthfully, that’s because you feed them, not because of your artwork.”
A resounding LOL!
This prompts me [...]
You know how when you skip through a DVD frame by frame, you can catch actors with the most ridiculous expressions on their faces? (It’s a fun game; I’m easily amused.)
This weekend I was taking photos of a crow and snapped this shot:
It reveals more about crow anatomy than you normally get through [...]
Last night was a hard night, full of nightmares that caused me to wake, resuming as soon as I fell asleep again. I’m taking a personal day off. The neural ghosts of past traumas cavort in my head like schools of slippery fish.
Self portrait, 2008
It’s only 1pm and I’m pretty sure I’ve hit my emotional high and low for the day.
High: Daydreaming about the artistic process while riding the bus; thinking about how frustrating and frightening being a visual artist is; thinking about how much vulnerability it requires– how each line in a drawing is a chance for [...]
I’ve been recovering from a bad virus for a month or so, and the road has been long and hard and boring and frustrating. Today was the first day where I said to myself, “I think I should like to ride my bike to work today, wot wot!” It’s been ages since I’ve [...]
I have a strange theory.
Sometimes during depressive episodes, I look into the mirror, and see my mother and father’s faces so clearly in my own that the experience evokes strong feelings of anger and self-hatred. I imagine that I am becoming them and I can’t escape it. I feel so angry that my [...]
I once spent several weeks photographing neighborhood aphids during the spring aphid explosion. I’ve always been really grossed out by aphids, but after staring their plump, green, alien bodies on my monitor for hours, I became (mostly) desensitized.
I learned about how braconid wasps parasitize aphids, leaving an exit wound as they leave the dried, [...]
Today I’m in the dumps. It’s a cold rainy day in Seattle, and I miss riding my bike. I haven’t been riding because I’ve been feeling sick for months; just a short ride between home and work twice a day can leave me feeling so drained I need to sleep immediately when I [...]